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聆听。晓月微笑·感激·今天的进行式 June 27 为一段无法复制的记忆。 MJ的谢幕来得最直接也最意外。前不久还和别人讨论着他的回归演出,没料到,预想中所有的喧哗和繁盛,都因为他急速的告别变成了无法弥补的遗憾。夜半时候,收到只字片语的感叹,想听听他的声音,却发现自己的电脑中一首也没有,虽然熟悉他那些广为人知的传唱。
其实很久没有听MJ的歌了,这几年尘嚣日盛的是关于他日益怪诞不羁的负面八卦。很少再有人讨论他在音乐上的不可逾越。这个注定改变流行音乐的天才终于在决定转身不回来时,给世界留下了大大的叹号,给在他的摇摆,声线和现场中找到流行的我们一些难以名状的慨叹。
情绪,或者记忆,寄生在我们熟悉的一个声音或一种旋律内,忙得来不及触碰,却永远不能遗落。今天再听MJ,好些久久没有由头勾起的旧人旧事柔软地兀现出来。某事某地某些言语,某个动作某个眼神,生动得像在眼前。我们急着长大离开,只是带不走曾经的段段场景是种在原地的多年生植物,没工夫打理也年月繁盛。不经意回头时,骤然生出了酸涩和浪漫,为那些过去的日子,那些不知何时再见的故人,为自己再回不去的过去。自己,看到了自己的那场戏,自己,继续在时间的纵轴上走着单行道。不能逆转,期待遥望。
MJ最引人注目的是爆发的表现力,但我喜欢他静静唱,唱的每一个人都不再相信寂寞。
Another day has gone , I am still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said good-bye, someone tell me why
Did you have to go and leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and say
That you are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone....
June 21 Fragments.Sometimes, words are so poor to express feelings inside. I still nail myself on the chair as I did three hours ago, thinking about you, as you may know, with music and a glass of water, no ice, and finally get a little tone. I tried to find out an album or a book dedicated to you, but too many of them to be listed.
Something can not be figured out, we label it destiny. In all those years, people keep coming and leaving, only the right ones stay within reach of hand. Why don’t we let them know life is tender and joyful, though, there are countless difficulties?
I wrote to you in a cold winter night, saying we should forever share the same happiness while our cities were so far from each other. And now, I insist on that, because I believe you can, and me too.
I should hide all my nervousness even my voice and eyes never tell lies. I should say I understand how hard these days would turn to be since he left, but I really want to skip this part, because I miss your smile more than your tears.
Living alone can be a kind of good, all you need is a little time to explore this new style. You may have no one to kiss you good night and good morning, but it has no chance to be a shame because you know you are saving all the sweet romance for someone who deserves it, someone brings you with confidence and generosity, someone takes a dive into your world.
I still remember your script descriping me: the girl from east of the city, drink friut juice instead of whiskey, living with books, music and tons of skirts,might be rescued by a man born with GPS. Do you want my piece? - a pretty woman raised the cutest puppy in one of the coldest city, sporty, resolute and always on her way to happiness. Yes, that's you.
Life is a kind of belief. Days are various notes and broken sentence in colorful pads. Memory is polished to be prosperous by time. What we need is to be better and wait for the ones to bring us to a warmer place named home. Maybe, he is around the corner.
Yesterday is a History, tomorrow is a Mystery, only today is a Gift, that’s why we call it Present. We all are so lucky to get the present.
Remember the two little girls hanging out all time together? I do like the days when we were that close. Although the last time we had “secret talk” is too far to recall, I will still try to feel what you feel with my heart, and you know I am here.
Let’s move on.
Life is beautiful.
Life is wonderful.
Dear L, I guess you may like the quiet night as I do. Perhaps I should make up a logic letter to settle all my thought clear, but I would rather lie down on my little couch with you, relaxing and talking, and here come all my fragments.
Take care.
June 15 花叶,深。 改不掉的习惯,半夜听爵士写碎文。Michael Buble的Home听成来比他唱起来纠结,却是钟爱,也是听到他的第一个作品。老觉得这样的声音应该坐在灯光低调的酒吧角落,透出些许颓废的亮丽。也许,那是夜深人静时需要的一种情绪。
脚趾甲被染成深深的酒红色,贴在枝繁叶茂的梧桐叶之间。6月的绿色饱满得快要滴漏下来。黄昏来临时渐渐显露暖色的夕阳不断助长着诗情画意,闭上眼睛沉浸过去,睡意渐渐覆盖了疲惫,补充我长期不良的睡眠。
我想醉,在树影斑驳的夏。 June 09 欢若平生。 Space依旧非常无厘头,不声不响无法登陆,再不声不响地能打开。几个来回之后,开始有点担心这个地方会不会在某一个睡眼朦胧的清晨永远蒸发消失。所有的只字片语,信手拈来,没有备份,不能回溯,还是祈祷别让我失了这琐碎的记忆群。
在打雷下雨后的阴天中醒来,发现落枕的迹象。脖子和腰背像是坚持劳作不得闲,终于酸痛和僵硬。仰着头吃下最后几只果冻,应该还能算是小范围的有了活动。接下来的举止都放慢了半拍,如同即兴表演的牵线木偶剧,犯上了自娱自乐。一天就这么不同寻常得开始。
世界很大,生活很小。在Space暂时休克的时候就想找个地方把这句话吼出来,虽然我还不能想象出要怎么个吼法。六月的打头就是飞机失踪,公交着火,山体垮塌...所有的意外之前,人脆弱的到不堪一击,生命消失的速度如此之快,容不下也许早就编辑好的台词和心理活动。眼睛里闪过此类的标题之后立即切换网页,总得过去不是。不去思索,也有些别扭,也只能提醒自己要懂得珍惜。
... ...
身边所有出现的人或事都可以浓缩概括为fate,不可抗拒的真实,好的坏的,来之安之。Welcome to the real world. It sucks.You're gonna love it.
此句做结,于是翻悟了欢若平生。
May 23 水墨西湖畔。 西湖浓淡远近,一幅无心而做的水墨,包裹了上下左右和自己,于是不能再用影像来论述。在杭州匆匆又绵长的几天,游走在陌生却是又带着熟悉气息的城市,像沉浸在欲言又止的温柔。梦里水乡,柳绿花红,一泓镜湖,一江清波,谁能不忆?忆江南。
一张机票,送我一千多公里,来见证最好的朋友挽起长发当嫁娘。当年那娇羞腼腆的小姑娘如今利索地打理上下两层的房子,喂养着体重比我弱不了多少的大狗,开着大大的越野车在地图上穿梭,彻底蜕变成了俏丽的贤妻。当她把手轻轻放在那个会陪她走完以后岁月的男人小臂上,顶着聚光灯缓缓走过香槟玫瑰的花门时,我在后面轻轻抛洒着花瓣,体会着空中一层层漾开的祝福。觥筹交错中婚礼完美结束,从此多了一对相濡以沫的夫妻,只愿幸福从此与他们如影随行。
回到酒店卸下礼服,才回想起我这个伴娘今天竟然是三副样子出了镜,呵呵,不知道多年之后,他们是不是还能看出中间的小小插曲。
剩下的时间,奢侈地留给了这座城市,将一路风情摄入眼帘。回想起来仍然有些戚戚,自觉是劳顿了这对新婚夫妇为我的吃住行操心。
到达当日,便初识西湖,贴心的"水果王夫妇"把第一顿午餐就排在了西湖旁边,在他们最喜欢的饭店迎接了我。杭帮菜的细致精巧展现无遗,爱极了洁白的骨瓷搭配颜色清亮的菜品。不得不说的是回来之后发现真的重了几斤,真是这对好客夫妇的功劳。自从到杭州,就没有一顿不精彩的宴,每一天每一顿都在不同的名菜馆饕餮,从闻名遐迩的楼外楼到别具一格的绿茶,从百年老面店到湖边的味庄,还有忘了名字的特色店,难怪新郎自信满满的说,跟他们吃三天,保证体重增加。这么一趟,我是彻底信服了。回来了,得是第一时间制定减肥计划了。要是谁再问我哪儿的东西好吃,我一定骄傲地加上-杭州。
和兰竟然绕着西湖跑了一圈,圆圆满满。在画舫的尾巴上摇到三潭映月,秀灵的湖边处处是景,清淡到美不胜收。江南的美无声无息,沁入心脾,心灵和身体一同变得无比温顺服帖。断桥上有人放风筝,竟是两条线牵住的,不为远走高飞,却发出阵阵呼啸,引得我们瞩目仰望。走上白堤,风势渐长,湖上的游人自划船都紧紧绑在了一起,随波逐流中来回飘摇。拍案的湖水渐渐有了力气,我们选了垂柳下的木椅,从前,现在,将来,慢慢铺展,多年不见,我们依然蹬掉平底鞋,彻底松弛畅谈。
去灵隐的路上下起了雨,寺院外墙,石板路,左手的泉流,绿叶尖上滴落的水滴...无数我那么熟悉的景致仿佛在重复着故乡的梦。沿着山势的庙堂节节提升,烫金的波若波罗密心经前很多人伸手去触摸吉祥,却是鲜有人悟透了色即是空,空即是色的箴言。佛门深邃,一路寡言,心诚则灵。
没有六车道的大路,不用规整划一的建筑,道旁几株枝叶溢出的梧桐足以表达这座城的气质。安静而悠远。
兰每日上班的路越过钱塘江,划过虎跑和杨公堤,那日和她走过一遍之后,终于明白为什么她曾那么深深被感动,直至落泪。
这就是烟波渺渺,幻像中柔柔的西湖。
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